JIMMY’S SEVEN-PART FIRE-DIARY SIDE-NOTE

Part I.

Jimmy snapped pics of Rilke poems and envisioned reading them to his crush by the creek in Eaton Canyon. He was 15 minutes late to Alta Dena. “We said 2PM,” she texted at 2PM. Jimmy smiled and turned up the tunes in his 1999 Creme Beeme knowing that if he had been on time she would have given him shit for being too punctual. That’s what he liked about her. She gave him shit for everything. He deserved it.
“Her indifference is a performance
for me
in my ongoing movie,
The plot of which resembles
Alta Dena
Tender Mercies,”
Jimmy thinks
“Waldo Salt, its screenwriter, said there was no such thing as “flash-backs”
He called them “flash-presents” cuz
When the past come back to haunt Joe Buck, the lonesome gigolo tormented by the hillbilly gang-raping of his ex-girlfriend a long time ago,
it comes back
—NOW—
Jimmy flicks his cigarette onto Lake Avenue
& Flips a Right Onto Their 2nd Date On New Years Eve, A Few Nights Ago:

There’s Jimmy, asking to see pics of her dog with the corny curiosity of a child actor
asking whos been cast in the role of his own
Son in the upcoming production
“Is he a German Shepard?”
“Yeah. Bet he won’t like you.”
“Why? Because he’s German?”
“Actually, he was raised by my dad, who was a Nazi. But that’s not why...”
“Your dad’s too young to be a Nazi. Palmdale, wasn’t it? 1970-something?”
“He was a skinhead in Palmdale in the 70s, 80s.”
“Not quite a nazi, but I get the picture.”
“No, I don’t think you do.“
“My own great-grandpa may-or-may-not have been a member of the KKK. It happens.“
“No, you don’t un-”
“I do understand that there are many men in the world full of rage who join clubs promising a place for it to belong.”
“Okay… so you do get it…”
“I do,” whispers Jimmy, ever-so-preciously.
“Is he still a Nazi?”
“No, he’s Born Again.”
“Good for him.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah. Jesus was the greatest, most annoying Jew of all time.”
“Why don’t you evoke some of His benevolence, get your hands out of my asscrack and get me a drink?”
“How would your Nazi father feel about you getting felt up on the patio of a Hollywood mansion by some dirty half-jew rat on New Years Eve?”
“He’s met worse.”
“Worse?”
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